Insecurity

This post is about my feelings at the moment.

Tired and frustrated. I dont exactly know why I feel this way. But I can probably point to my current status and my future outlook. 

After studied for so long, for 17 years to be exact, and doing fairly well along the way, I still left feeling unsuccessful and insecure. It is amazing to see that I have spent almost all my life on education, yet it still does not guarantee anything. What's more, I have pass through all of the education phases on good grades.

It's just depressing to think about the future at times. At times like this, when nothing is going for me, I tend to wonder whether I will make it out ok in this life. I know it's no use worrying of what's ahead, but I cant help it.

Those days of not worrying are past I guess. It must be good to be able to not care at all, like when I was little. Life was simpler and a lot happier back then.

Sometimes it feels like as u get older, u start to lose all of ur hopes and dreams little by little. Those happy times ahead u visualise in ur mind starting to not make sense. And perhaps that u will live all ur life being mediocre, is not out of possibility anymore.

I guess it's just my transition to the real world. I have been living off my parents for my whole life, and now I'm starting to worry of the time I step out of it. The prospect may look bleak now, but I guess I have to keep my spirit up and hope it will all turn out okay. Be optimistic, friends used told me. At least for now I have my family support and my cute little sisters to play with. Here's hoping for better days ahead.


Edit: Scratch that. I feel a lot better now due to a news I heard. Thank you god.