Sunday, March 13, 2011

Back in Business

Dah balik dari Australia :)

It was great. We went to a lot of places over the 4 days there. Sydney feels different to me now that I am no longer staying there. I felt like a tourist. Before, I couldn't care less taking picture because it's where I live. 

Talking about Sydney, I have to say I did not enjoyed living there, due to a lot of reasons. Studying overseas is not all fun as u would think. It was a struggle for me. But I think it has toughen me up, and made me a more independent person. Also equally important, it has opened my eyes and broaden my narrow mind. I think the way I think now is different to the way I think before I went abroad. To that end, I am grateful of having that opportunity and the hardships are all worth it. Not to mention, now I have a degree (Hopefully laku).

After 4 years and several hundred thousands


I will miss Sydney though. The weather, the few close friends I had there, the atmosphere, the way of life there.. although it doesn't suit me well, I will always remember it. Also the little things, like how punctual and easy to get busses, to cross the road..will be missed very much.

Ety sangat photogenic

On the contrary, sangat x photo-friendly

Anyways, if u want to look at more pictures, please visit Mak Ngah's Facebook Album. There u can find all the photos I've taken professionally. Hehe.

Changing the subject, I will be in Bangi for the next 2 weeks, for induction course. It's nerve racking for me and my heart feels heavy, as I will no longer able to slack around. I've gone to several courses like this before, during my scholarship period, and I know roughly what will be conducted during the course. Thinking about it make my stomach do a back flip. Hah.. Any advice on how to overcome nervousness? Hope the next 2 weeks will fly by quickly. By then I hope I will already find a place to live (ideally an apartment) and everything settled so I can begin my own life. We'll see how it goes :)

Friday, March 4, 2011

Busy

Haloo.. Ini entri yg terakhir untuk beberapa minggu saya rasa. Tersangat sibuk minggu nie, siapkan semuanya from job offer to travel preparations. Everything dah settle sekarang, cuma ada hold up dengan med checkup. Haritu test mata x lepas.. dan kene buat spek mata baru. Tulisannya sangat la kecil, memang susah nak baca. Harap2 dengan spek mata baru, boleh nampak dgn jelas.

So esok nie pergi ke KL, flight pagi2. Then malam esok bertolak ke Australia. Flight 8 jam nie, nasib baik malam..boleh tido terus. Walaupun saya actually suka nak tgk movie dalam flight, banyak yg baru2 biasanya. Sampai kat sana, it'll be fun I hope. Takut jugak nie, nak kene cakap english balik. Dah rusty.
 
This time bolehla beli banyak skit souvenirs.. Sorry haritu x bawak banyak pun. Masa tu dah broke, bayar shipping etc. Nanti kitorang carikan pape yg menarik ok.

Itu saja for this time, dah penat dan mengantuk sangat. Nanti maybe akan post gambar. See u next time :)

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Troubled

Hah.. Rasa sangat down lately. I have everything in place but the peace is not there. It's because I have done wrong, and now my conscience is killing me. X dapat stop the self hating. Why cant I be a good person? What's stopping me, I dont know. I'm always so ungrateful and frustrated, although I realise I am lucky to have u.

I dont know what I'm after. Lost. I'm still in a quest to find myself. Still a long way to go.

I ask for ur forgiveness and blessing, for me to find that peace in me for now and move on without regrets.